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random! [Thursday
September 20th, 2007; 3:08am]
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i hate that i can't fall asleep until 5am.
this schedule is killing me.

it's almost friday.
and i'm really excited.

hell, i'm excited for tomorrow [today]
after classes are done with, jimmy will be here, and we get to hangout and be cool.
photo night tomorrow, as well, with danners and jimmers.
then friday's here, and i have to work 9-5, blehhhckk.
but at least bigbigbig party afterwords.
! and payday! wooo.


onto other things that have been happening in my life:

it's fall again and i keep thinking about last year.
the feeling of weather changing always makes me reminice.
it makes me think of last summer when we always complained about not having fun, and how we always sat in my car and did nothing. i miss that.
last summer was definately the summer before growing up.
i miss scott, and i think about him all the time.
it's been a year already, and i still can't get over that relationship.
eventhough it only lasted what? three months?

i've reconciled with jimmy &trisha, yet again, and it feels nice.
we're all grown up and starting our lives.
they're both moving to mt. pleasant, and it's going to be the time of our lives.

who can say that they live with their two very best friends, with their other two right accross the street? I CAN. =]

school sucks, and i knew that it would.
but at least i'm ready for it now and i'm sticking it out.
i just have to get it done, and over with.
stick it to the man.

rob's coming back soon, and that will be lovely.
even though it's only for a week =[
but we're going to see Bishop Allen in Ann Arbor, and that'll be fun.
Then Regina's cominig to the state theater, so i'll be seeing her for the second time.
with danners and sarahhhh.

oh boy.

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August 15th, 2007; 11:58pm]
so it's been 17 weeks since i last updated.

so here's an update.

i'm 19 now.
i start college in two weeks.
i moved out of my mom's house.
i live with three girls, two of whom are my best friends.
we have a house in Mt. Pleasant.

i got [another]zune and a laptop for my birthday.

i lost my job at bob evans back in july when i was living in midland with christopher.
i'm broke and looking for a job.
i can't even make rent in the new house.


i went to cowpie with some sweet people for my birthday last weekend.
cowpie is a blues festival, just so you know.
we camped over night and it was great.

see ya. =]
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fuck detroit & 11:11. [Saturday
April 14th, 2007; 8:39pm]
so on thursday, Sarah, Dani, Marnie, Matt and I went down to the Majestic to see Andrew Bird.

We parked a block away from the Majestic, and two blocks away from the police station.

Came out of the show at exactly 11:11, skipping around having lots of fun because the show was great.
When we got to the car, the backside passengers window was busted in, and all three purses we had in the back were taken.

I lost $90 cash, my Zune mp3 player, my debit card, social security card, my keys, my license, EVERYTHING, my pachouli, my favorite bandana, my planner/journal. dfjdsafdsa. and my bowl.

so the next day i put a stop on my debit card and then hours later, recieve a call for me to approve some transactions which were all made down on Grand River.

THEN, that night, sitting at lil' chef, Dani get's a phone call from a 313 area code, ( her phone was taken and she got a new one that day, with her phone number just transfered)
This guy, hangs up immediately and we keep calling it back leaving angry voice mails and then finally he returns it, saying he got a call from this number at 4:30am that morning, that he didn't recognize the number so he was just returning the phone call. BULLSHIT.

This fucking world is going to shit. Money is shit. Detroit is shit.
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if you missed last night... [Monday
March 19th, 2007; 7:49pm]
[ mood | amused ]

you missed a great time.

but i'll recap for you. =]
apparently it was my "birthday", thanks to Andy's mom.

the people -
Myself, Dani, Sarah, Christopher, Andy, Mike, Emilie, and Dan Tuma. =]

you missed..
- an attempted bonfire.
- yahtzee.
- parrot bay & cactus juice.
- boxed wine, birthday wine, kahluha, beer.
- drunken ddr.
- cuddling being a favorite hobby.

you missed us calling lil' chef.
you missed Sarah and I dressed up in matching dresses &singing to everyone.
Lots of dressing up in hats, sunglasses, and slippers.

We just called to say, we love youuu!Collapse )
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March 11th, 2007; 4:59pm]
So I forgot to mention that my grandpa died last saturday. =[
We all knew it was coming, but it was still pretty terrible.

this is what my summer is starting out as --

first Ben Gibbard.
then the next weekend, Regina Spektor.
and then HOPEFULLY the weekend after is going to be Bright Eyes.
And maybe Ben Folds thrown in there somewhere.

oh goshhhh.

This weather has gotten me all shook up.
I love it.
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February 22nd, 2007; 2:41am]
[ mood | angry ]

some people are just complete scumbags.
there are some out there that don't care about your friendship.
they can be two faced, attention whores.
whore is also a good word to explain them.
cheating whores.

i value my close friendships because i know how easily it is for people to get treated like DIRT.
i've been through it.

To those of you who will remember me for being a good friend, not just someone to hangout with while you're bored
-- thank you!

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12:12 [Wednesday
February 14th, 2007; 12:18am]
So Sunday night, Dani, Chris and I pulled an all nighter.
I was up for 38 hours, which was fine.
I gave my plasma for the first time in Mt. Pleasant, and i'm going again on Thursday. In which I'll be getting $40, which is pretty sweet.

Samantha and I agreed on trying the 72 hours no sleep, thing. (If you stay awake for 72 hours straight, you'll be considered clinically insane?) I dont know why this intrigues me, but it does.

Thursday is also the anti-valentines day party, which I'm pretty pumped about. Hopefully I can get out of work on Friday morning.

Bob Evans bumped my hours up to 39 hours a week, and I'm pretty pissed off about that. I know I shouldn't be, but three days a week i work 10am-7pm which takes away practically my whole day. But hopefully this, plus my 80 dollars a week from the biolife center will help me save up for an apartment finally. To get my shit together.

Delena's tomorrow with Samantha. I'm excited. I miss her, and it'll be nice to catch up. It feels like nothing's even changed. I guess that just proves how close of friends we used to be.
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February 8th, 2007; 7:39pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

weed &wine.

I'm in the mood to say fuck you to everything in my life.
I want to move away and start over.
I need to move away and grow up.
I want to end up doing something with myself.
I need to end up doing something that matters.

I dont know where to start.

I'm sick of doing the same thing every single day.
I feel like my life is slowly going no where.

I'm finally starting to realize that the only person you can depend on is yourself.
Do what you need to do and don't worry about everyone else.

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February 3rd, 2007; 9:40pm]
I feel bad for neglecting my livejournal.
Especially after having it for four years and updating it consistantly.

I've always wanted to print out all my entries [along with those on deadjournal, which was before lj] and make a book with them.
a real journal.

I guess my life consists of --
mike black

lil chef
chris's place.
wal mart.

I have so many things I have to get done.
signing up for school
or cosmotology.
deciding which one of the above I even want to do.
going to bioLife to donate my plasma for $$$$

life is such an asshole lately.
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last winter. [Saturday
December 9th, 2006; 7:23pm]
If it were this time last year, chances are i'd be at the Wesley right now.
or having coffee up at Delena's with about 10 of my friends.
maybe at Lil' Chef in Midland doing the same thing.
or standing outside the coffeeshop, freezing my ass off, smoking and associating.
I could of possibly been over at Samantha's playing DDR or driving around trying to find someone to buy us cigarettes.
If this would have been two years ago, I'd be in Detroit with Jamie and Samantha, having a very good time.
If this would have been three years ago, I would be over at Krystle's celebrating Halloween on Christmas.
Maybe i'd be over at Brittany's just watching a movie and having a good time.
I'd be dreading school to come on Monday, and probably had been to Saturday school this morning.
I could have been out shopping with Nikki McKenna, shoplifting my heart away.
... doing donuts in the Lowe's parking lot.

it's so weird how different my life is now.
people go in and out of it, and i'm fine with that.
i have good memories to look back on, and pictures to prove them.
i loved these people and always will. still do.
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December 2nd, 2006; 4:19pm]
it's december and there's snow.
snowed on the first of december.

and i've been extremely sick for the passed few days.

i hate updating this thing anymore.
scratch that --
i hate getting on the computer anymore.
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November 18th, 2006; 10:25pm]
my stomach has been aching for about a month and a half now.
i have an idea what's causing it, but i dare not even want to think it.

aside from that, my life consists of nothing except for work, crashing at friends' places when I can, sunday &wednesday party nights.
smoking lots of weed, drinking lots of tequila.
trying to void out everything that's in my mind, basically.
how healthy is that? wow, i dont even care anymore.
especially when i have a fun time in the process.
i love my friends, i love hanging out.
they help me alot.

my grandpa's in the hospital. he's in stage three of lung cancer.
he started chemo yesterday, and they say he won't live passed six months.
it has my mom torn apart, and i'm trying to not think about it so much.

a psychic told me that my grandma's with me.
it's a good thing to know.
also said that i'd be meeting a 25 year old by the name of Marc
that will have a huge impact on my life.
we'll see about that one.
(especially since i can't seem to get over the one boy i've been in love with)

regina spektor & sondre louchre.

p.s - i went and saw Happy Feet today.
penguins are pretty cuteeee.
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October 27th, 2006; 7:42pm]
So maybe it's not too bad.
Maybe it's not all my fault.
Things were just too difficult and there's no sense in pining over it.
[though, the toughest part was tearing down the pictures off my walls,
and i can't sleep well without the stuffed animal you gave me.]
i loved you and i learned from you.

Instead, i'll try to have a good time with the people around me.
and look forward to new plans i'll be making.
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October 26th, 2006; 7:38pm]
i finished off a fifth of tequila last night.
i haven't been that drunk in a long while.
it felt pretty nice.
i woke up this morning glad i have so many
friends in my life that would do a lot for me.

--he is going to take a long time to get over.
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October 24th, 2006; 8:50pm]
and just like that, the girl was single again.

three months.
i'm going to miss him a lot, that's for sure.
this is so hard.
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October 22nd, 2006; 12:33am]
just for once -- i want him to miss me.
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October 21st, 2006; 6:48pm]

i'm alive.
but i don't feel like it.
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October 12th, 2006; 11:00pm]
[ mood | awake ]

So the last few days have been a blast.
Yesterday, Scott and I carved another pumpkin and ate a carmel apple.
What's more Halloween than that? dfdsakjfsadohhhhhhhhh. =]

Last night was a sleepover at Christopher's.
Including hookah, stealing pumpkins to carve, Regina Spektor, wine, and a little bit of weed.
speaking of Regina Spektor -- she's my new love.

and tonight i ate pumpkin seeds, drank tea, and watched Grey's Anatomy with Scott's mom. =]

North Carolina Scott mentioned something to me about fifteen minutes ago.
We were catching up and he said that i'm an "independent lady"
and i finally realized how much i've grown up.
I went from doing absolutely nothing, to -- turning 18, having a 35 hour a week job, paying for my own things, living my own life, and balancing my own friend/relationships. (and soon -- cosmotology school)

i can honestly say and mean it when i say that i'm proud of myself.

today was the first snowfall.
and my camera's battery was dead so I couldn't take a picture. =[
so instead -- i bought a scarf.

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October 10th, 2006; 1:48pm]
[ mood | blank ]

so -- first off.
i figured out that i overanalyze everything when i'm on my period.

second --
BRADLEY HATHAWAY is on Sundayyyyyyy.
for free. and i'm PUMPED.

third --
we had a scavenger hunt on Saturday, and i have a lot of pictures (&videos) from it up on my photobucket.
which is poontangg, so you should check it out.

fourth --
i have to leave for work in 45 minutes, and i really don't feel like going.

fifth --
i bought a hooka & moccasins yesterday. Two really great buysssss. =]

sixth --
October seems like the most eventful month in a long time.
let's see.
scavenger hunt.
homecoming night. (saturday)
the blanket idea.
olive garden !!
bradley hathaway.

or maybe it's just because i love autumnnn?!

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October 3rd, 2006; 7:53pm]
it'll blow over soon, right?
it always does.

edit @ 10:10pm.
i'm usually right about things like this.
but i really hope this time is an exception.
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